Obstacles

I wrote this poem when I was 16. Although I don't recall exactly what this poem was reflecting around in my life, I find it very ironic that it fits more of my life now. As a writer who keeps everything I put on paper it's funny to have this trail of my past. What is even more comical, is that at 16 I thought I knew what life obstacles were. How many times have you told yourself, "If I only knew then what I know now." Enjoy.

*To anyone that has had cancer leech into their lives... Chin up loves, this is only an obstacle. One you overcome.

Obstacles

January 15, 2004

 

I feel as if I'm drowning in an ocean of my life

The waves have washed my happiness a million miles out of sight.

No matter where the water flows I find myself plunging deeper

And every time my bubble bursts I grow a little weaker

 

I feel as if I'm tumbling down a mountain of my life

Each step I take leads to a place

Filled with hopelessness and strife.

But when I drift away at night, and submerge myself in a dream

The sea is calm, the waves roll gently, and I feel like a queen.

My attitude is bright and my heart swells with pride

I lift a load off my back and set reality aside.

Constantly I worry that the hills will be too steep

And every time I trip or slip, I see failure and defeat.

But when I tuck myself into a heavenly slumber

The land is flat

The slopes are smooth

And the world itself is a wonder.

I pleasantly skip across open fields,

And let the winds sweep through my hair

How grand is it to dance in a dream

Though my real life is waiting somewhere

Life is a twisted obstacle course

I hurdle through challenges

And feel joy and remorse.

My only escape is seen, through closed eyes

And the second they open, my fantasy dies.